To my bestest friend in the whole world.

[Deleted]

To a certain someone I strongly despise~

Hi.
K so
I hate you.
I really do.
I've been called ugly, and have been beaten to bloody pulp all the time since I got out of elementary.
And you know what?
When things like that happen, you start to hate yourself. You hate who are; pfft you don't even know who you are. You act differently around people, and you also act like a dick to everyone but your 3 friends.
And even then you can be a real jerk to them at times too. Sometimes I wonder why they even put up with me. I probably cause half their problems.
Anyway. Back to you.
One of the only things I like about myself is I consider myself smart. I'm trying my best to get good grades, and hope to forever stay in advanced classes and make it into an excellent college.
But you.
Why the hell did you do this to me?
You made me look and feel like the dumbest person alive today. As I stood there at the table and you laughed at me and shouted how stupid I was, I was trying hard not to cry.
Really hard.
And then after you got your little buddies to laugh at me too, and got everyone's attention...
I cried. I cried in front of everyone, because of all the hurtful words.
Nyahaha. That only made everything worse. I'm not even going to tell you what happened after school.
Oh and in band.
I work my ass off to become better. Music is the only thing that makes me happy anymore. I dedicate hours. Fucking hours. to be able to play this good.
It's like an obsession. I crave to become better. I want to be an amazing musician. I want to learn all the instruments and be as perfect as I can with them.
Now listen to me.
You will never. EVER. take that away from me.
You will not touch my instruments, because next time you'll lose your arm, and your pretty little face.
You will not call me a show off, just because you and the people that sit around us don't know how to play a single note because your to busy talking about Becky's hair and Thomas's face.
I work hard to get this way. I worked hard to get into all these musical places.
No matter how much you bother me in that class, you can't take my music and my passion away from me.
I know your going to continue all this, and I'll probably allow it to happen.
But you will not. touch. her. again.
There is nothing I can do to stop you from attacking me, but you better leave my best friend alone.
You hurt her. You hurt her and it stung.
And it's not going to happen again.


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Guys I have problems.

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Ok,
1. Who is the bitch trhat hurt you? She needs to either get a life or go to fucking hell. No one hurts my zero like that and makes her cry.
2. Bitch needs to go fuck herself. Hard.
3. HunBun, I'm here for you and is ready so really deal some pain to that bitch. If I went to school with you, I would be in ISS or jail. For fighting. With a weapon.
4. Honey, If this continues, you should go to a counsler. Don't give a rat's motherfucking ass what they think of you for going to get help. YOUR SUPPOSED TO.
5. If you commit suicide, I will never talk on this forum again. Seriously. Suicide will NOT take you away from the pain your already feeling. Trust me. It's true.
5. A kid at my school was pronouced DEAD for 10 seconds because of he wanted to fight to prove that he's "All cool", but someone who was sick of him being a bully, killed him for 10 seconds. That is what bullying can do to you or the person that is bullying you.

Honey, I'm here and will help you through and through. I may not be right next to you. I may not be within ten minutes of where you live. But, believe me, I'm close by. Right there in the place we all call a heart.

Sweetheart, smile and shove off the people who hurt you. Charma is going to come back around for them so hard, it'll make you laugh till you piss.

Zero HunBun, I love you and hope for the best. I hope this helps you.

Best Wishes~
Princey

[DemonousNight]

I was bullied allot too (and still am btw) and I stood up to them (i also got suspended for this btw) and said "Why don't you go pick on someone your own size bitches because, I am not putting up with your fucking shit anymore! If you wanna bully me I will bully you right back." -w-' Cassy was her name and she told me to put up with her shit and get over it because she's the boss. -w-' This is where I got suspended btw- I ran behind her locked both of her arms in my elbow (kinda like a headlock) and used one of my feet to kick her left leg so she would fall to the right (into the grass instead of the concrete...) and pinned her there for about 48 seconds until she started screaming for the principle....My mom was proud of me...by the way when I went back to school she never bullied me again. But that was years ago...
OH AND I listen to this allot -w- you should too. Oh how it calms my nerves....

[Zaroque]

Guys I have problems.

Zero.
No.

You do not have problems, they do. If someone says to you 'you have a problem', just know that you're not the one with the problem. If they have a problem with you, THEY are the one having the problem. ~ Someone bullying you, calling you names and pushing you around is inhumane and they often know it.
I can't say I have ever been bullied, but I've stood up and fought for those who had been and I got myself in a good position. If a bully knew the person knew me, they wouldn't lay a hand on them, because the first person that person would go to would be me, and I knew exactly how to treat that bully.

One of the only things I like about myself is I consider myself smart. I'm trying my best to get good grades, and hope to forever stay in advanced classes and make it into an excellent college.

Zero, I am going to be honest and say I really admire you. Ever since I joined ITr you were the first person who I looked up to as a role model and still do. You having a passion for music also inspires me and your will to carry on doing the things you love. You will succeed and I know you will, because I want to be there and push you up the hill and get to where you want to be. Don't you doubt that for a second, darlin'. ~ <3

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I admired zero ,too, when I first came here. I admired you too Zaro.

I will hold you up as long as I'm around for you, HunBun. <33

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Thank you all for caring, it means alot.

@knockout: From what I learned, counselors don't give a flip about you. They give you a little piece of Bubble Gum and send you on their way. I also have major trust issues, and I would never talk to them or other adults. I kind of flip out around therapists.

DemonousNight: I really can't afford to get into a fight or anything like that, because if I get suspended that will affect me in the future when college looks at your behavior. Not only that, parents/guardians would freaking kill me if I ever got suspended. Pfft they nearly killed me when I got 1 detention

Zaroque: Thank you so much Zaro. I still don't like me, but you help me to feel a bit better about myself. I will keep moving forward, especially with support~ Thank you so much.

[DemonousNight]

^-^ I was not expecting yew tew~ But I was just stating how I dealt with it <3~

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I know about the counslers, but the one I had really helped. Well, I'm here if you need someone to stab if your angry. <33

You have my support mroe then zaro's lolol

[Zaroque]

Feb 9, 2013 23:18:00 GMT -5 @knockout said:

You have my support mroe then zaro's lolol

WHAT. How dare yoou, we all know that's not trueee. :I
But y'see? Everyone admires you, I wouldn't look at yourself in the eyes of the people who bully you, but ze people who love you.

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LOL
anyway, The bulleis are probably jealous of what you have and what they DON'T have.

[Zaroque]

Correct, they're probably jelly of Zero having smexy friends like us. ~

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Ohbby yes.

So jelly right now it's made me horny. :l